It's two in the morning and I'm still awake. Many would asume by that statement something was wrong, but I must confess, it is my own doing and most probably the norm.
These days without school are spent doing nothing important, yet always dreaming of the things I could accomplish. The concept is there, but the motive to step forward in an attempt to accomplish these goals is lacking. Some would say something was missing, something wasn't right, but in all honesty, I find myself the only one to blame for this. Laziness? Could that be it? Yet I feel so restless.
In truth -something I have spent much time pondering- I know the answer to all of this: I yearn for the sea. In but twelve more days I will see it once again, as I stand on the grainy shore and breath the salty air -the only thing that seems to put my seasonal sicknesses to ease.
Ah, the ocean. It has been far too long indeed! Two --no, no, possibly 3 years since I last set foot on such a wonderful paradise. In but twelve days I will embrace it once again. I plan to do much reading on my trip, for my restless mind will ease. I also plan to start writing again, something I've been hoping to do for many months now.
I cannot wait, but I must... Such a cruel fate it is, to be parted from what you love and then have it thrown back to you after so long...but for it to be just out of reach. Just beyond my grasp!
This darkness, this emptiness, it suffocates me! I long for those days in the warm sun again, and for those nights with their salty breeze... Come, now, clock! Run your minutes faster! You stand in my way of the sea!
I say these words, say them over and over, but nothing will change. Nothing but my patience... it only grows shorter.
I hope these days will grow shorter... Perhaps I should start sleeping in longer... Time seems to go more quickly in the hours of the night. My gosh! The clock! It already reads half past two! Then, now, to bed I shall go,
and wake not until half past two in the afternoon.
I hope you all are enjoying your summers in more success than I.
Edit: This is being posted the day after I wrote it, because my computer decided to die as I was clicking the post button... Thank god for it saving drafts...